What is wrong with me???

I know this is a loaded question for me to ask, because the most popular response is going to be “depends on who you ask!” And that is infinitely correct.  We gather others opinions of us and use them like a wardrobe each day to shape how we act, much like the clothing we wear affects our actions, so do others opinions.  Isn’t it tiring trying to live up to what others think or don’t think of us?  I know for me, it is impossible, there are simply too many people expecting too many things for me to ever satisfy everyones need or perspective on what I should be.  Recently a friend dropped a book off by my office and today during my quiet time I picked it up and began to read.  This book is going to be one of those that aggrevate me, I can tell already.  You know the  kind, you read it and conviction and questions begin to race through your mind. 

The first thing I had to ask myself is “what is wrong with me?”  I believe it’s so easy, after many years of serving the Lord, to become a “professional christian” and lose purpose and focus on what is truly the heart of what we do.  The matter of truth is, we complicate the simple, layer by layer, generation by generation. We add to and compliate the profound truth of being a follower of Christ.  Jesus had to address this with the pharisees and told them that the most important “to do” of our lives should be: “Love the Lord thy God with all thy HEART, and with all thy SOUL, and with all thy MIND and with all thy STRENGTH”  Hmmmm, I can think of alot of things I have put in place in my life over this truth, can you?  What is wrong with me…..

We forget that to go forward, you must go backward…back to the place where you first encountered the face of God, the place where you sought him and He allowed you to find Him…that sweet place of birthing a relationship that yearned to grow but somehow became mechanical and tiresome.  Fresh, is more than a Subway logo, it should be the smell of our relationship with Christ.  The Church in Galatia was asked “you did start well, what did hinder you?”  I guess we all need to sit down and ask ourselves the same question.

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